Ok, I'm gonna be very honest here...
I know I've told myself and even said it here before that one of the main reasons why i enjoyed blogging (and have continued to do so regular for one-year-and-nine-months ) was that `it is a creative outlet for myself'...
But that's only half the truth. I can't deny the fact that unlike writing in a diary, i know i have an audience here.. So whatever I do, consciously or subconsciously i do tailor my blog with my friends/readers in mind.
In many instances I have actively `promoted' my blog to old and new friends and even some acquaintances.. although I have not been pushing my blog on the blogosphere. But I do count myself as quite an active blogger though definitely not a high profile one.
Ok.. here is the crunch. I don't know now whether I have enough reasons to blog on.. I feel that after almost two years and I think I've done quite a good job (look into my archieve if u have time) but the hits to my blog have not increased but even decreased these days..
Like these few days, my sitemeter registered an average of 20 plus hits and less than 20 a day! That's kinda sad because over the last year or so, the visitors to my blog has gradually increased to about 30 and more, and I had even hit much higher numbers when I posted comment on popular blogs or posted on popular topics that people searched on.
Yes I know i should not feel disheartened for I do know many bloggers who still continue to blog on with just a minimal circles of readers.. But maybe it's just me. May be it's the journalist in me.. I need some form of recognition for my `work'. I admit that having comments from readers delights me, and I feel quite discouraged of sort when I don't get any comments for many consecutive posts.
For instance, my circle of old friends had visited my blog as I posted recently on the gathering. Some did reply my email to them but still none placed a comment - even if the blog was about them. And somehow I felt the effort was not really appreciated or rewarded.. BUT again, these are non-blogger nor blog readers so..
Gosh, I think I'm sounding like a pathetic attention-seeker..! But I just feel like thrashing this out..hello, is anyone out there? Or am I just writing for myself?
So, my dear readers (i know there are just a handful out there), please don't hide nor be silent anymore. At least say something - anything, if you wish to read more stuff from `Jess' 2 Js'. Then at least I will know there are indeed people reading and sorta appreciating and enjoying my blog.. and i'll be feel more motivated to write on..
Till then.. :/